A drop of " INK"

Each one of us has a different way to release their pain, anger, asphyxiation, sadness, misery …. etc. Some people lock themselves in their rooms, some people prefer to cry to wash away all what's inside. Some people talk about what bothers them, others sing out loud, artists love to draw, but when it comes to me?! 

A pen and some papers are my PERFECT way to release all the pressure and pain inside me...…
A drop of "ink"...… fell on some paper and it started writing....writing....writing....and writing!
writing what my lips can't speak, what my eyes fails to show, what my tears scream of....what my soul feels inside...
and then I look up at the ceiling and think....think of all those steps I made, all those moves I took...
all seem wrong, although at that moment seemed right?!
so where should I go?! I am so lost!! to the right where nothing is left? or to the left where nothing is right?!
should I have done this?! or I should I have done something else?!
 should I have listened to my heart? or it was better to follow my mind?!
How can I control those feelings?! how to silence all these sounds I keep hearing.... all those images that flash In front of my eyes like thunder?! 
what is friendship?! what is love?! why there's hatred?! betrayal? loyalty?! trust?! treason? truth? lies?!
all jumbled in my head!! a lot of confessions left unspoken, a lot of words that change nothing....
nothing to be said!! because no one gets me?! just that ink!! only ONE drop!! could say it all!!!
And In the end?!!! 
well, that's a question NO ONE can answer.... JUST FATE!!!